Hi there, I don’t really want to waste too much of your time but I have had something nagging at me for a long time and really don’t have any other way to get any answers.
Simply put is why did my mother seem to dislike me? Out of my twin brother and younger sister I was the most stable. My twin had been born with mental retardation and they believe he developed Paranoid schizophrenia very young in life rather than in the teens my younger sister was born with asprigers and seizures. We did not have much money as she was a single mother, I understood this and for the most part kept to myself as she would often verbally lash out at me for the smallest things. She had more than once told me I was a mistake and an accident. She became engaged when I was fifteen or sixteen she had told me at one point that if she had to chose between him or me she would pick him.
I am not putting this up in an attempt of getting pity. I am very well that others out there have it much much worse. I just don’t understand why in thirty years I have yet to hear her say I love you or give me a hug that I remember other a then social worker telling her to hug me when I was little and even then that was a half assed attempt.
What did I do that was so wrong?
Last Edited by on Apr 09, 2008 8:57 PM
I am not a psychologist and this is in no way professional advice.
It seems very clear to me that this has nothing to do with you. Your mother was overwhelmed and I am sure very angry about her life circumstances. Your brother and sister needed much more help than you did, so her attention would be focused there. I think she hated her life not YOU.
If you are having trouble getting past this please seek out the advice of a professional.
Blessings, Bonnie Vent San Diego Paranormal Research Project www.sdparanormal.com